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Tuesday, April 27, 2010 { Tuesday, April 27, 2010 }

NOW PLAYING: HEY, SOUL SISTER by Train.

Hello. So today I woke up around 11am and as soon as I washed my face I hurriedly opened my computer to start shift my Hotel City. GAHHHHD. I can't believe I totally forgot to wake up at 12:30am for that. :| I slept upside down last night. (or is that even the right term? whatever) So I got a bowl of corn flakes and milk and headed back to my room to watch season 2 of The Secret Life of the American Teenager. After 2 episodes I had to eat lunch. OH I HATE EATING. :| With no extra curricular activity for this summer, I feel freakin FAT.NO KIDDING. So i went online after eating. I watched Danny Noriega again, downloaded a couple of random songs, mostly cobras, ones i heard from Maan's bloggyspot. (i miss you biff. it feels weird that im online and youre not. im not used to it.) So after my head hurt, i decided to watch DVD's. I have LOTS of new and original ones from Jophie's room. I borrowed some. (thanks Joph. LY!) I watched Make IT Happen. Cool cool movie. Loved it. But damn. I miss dancing a lot. :| I saw ballet scenes and all that music. GOSH. I miss ballet. I wanna dance. :| NOW. please. WAIT. Thats not the only movie I watched, I also watched EVERYBODY'S FINE. It made me cry. So much for that. Its really sad to watch a movie alone. GEEZ. Though it felt okay because it ate my time and prevented me from staying online doing nothing. You know what, i actually feel like the only thing exercised in my body are my fingers. =)) from typing and all that. :| :)) Now here I am, stuck in my computer chair. BLOGGING and watching LIVELAVALIVE on youtube. I love watching random people on youtube, I mean, their funny and all that. It entertains me. :> Tomorrow, I wanna:
1. Have some yogurt.
2. See my friends.
3. Take pictures of things around me.
4. cross a pedestrian lane and make a wish. (maan knows my wish.)
5. Kill someone. (okay this is a joke.)
6. Paint my nails green or pink. Whatever fits.
7. Realize why certain things happened recently and be able to accept them whole-heartedly. (sounds serious.)
8. Smile and make a person smile.
9. Give a street kid my spare change.
10. Have a Chocolate Cream Chip Frappe @ Starbucks ALONE and think of what, why, when, where and how. :|

AS YOU CAN SEE, FEEL, WHATEVER. Im not fully happy right now. :|
There's this thing thats bugging me all week. :| I wont say it. My bestest friends know what it is. Its like all my dreams just bursted like a bubble poked by a little kid. GONE. Flown away. I dont know what to do. Maybe God has better plans for me, but what could be worse? :| Oh whatever. I can deal with this. :> I will be happy, SOON. :>

To you my dear friend, I am sorry. SINCERELY sorry if you got hurt in my post yesterday. That was not being plastic at all. I blog to express and at that time, I was really furious. If youre a real friend, you would understand. I blogged so I can express. Im sorry. from the bottomest of my heart. If you would never talk to me again, its fine. I'd understand. BUT dont ever think I was never true to you. Im not like that. If I kept that all to myself, I'd die of sadness and anger. Im sorry. K? Im not plastic. Im frank. I'd tell you what I feel and you know that. Okay? BYE. Sorry.

YAY! Im gonna be with my BIFFFFFFF tomorrow. YOU'LL MAKE ME FEEL OKAY? okay? :> I love you. :> love you maaaaaaaaaaan. :>