Thursday, October 7, 2010
{ Thursday, October 07, 2010 }
CHEERS FOR NO CLASSES AND NO TRAINING DAY. \:D/
It is technically the first sembreak of my college life. Well I know I wouldn't exactly have because of the training for our upcoming concert but at least I have a week to enjoy the BUM life. It's MC's finals week today. I was expecting this to be a HELL WEEK for me but it went the other way around since I only took the finals exam for Filipino and that's it. Some of the other subjects had projects for finals, some subjects I got exempted, some just cancelled the exam. I was like, K.
And so this is college: so much easier than what I had back in my high school years. Though I still cram my homeworks, I dont really cram to the last minute like I used too. I miss the simple life in MakSci. I miss Makati. I miss everything about it.
Training gets tiring. Sometimes I just wanna quit because it doesn't always feel good. Frustration comes along everytime I dont do things the way they expect me to. The moments wherein I feel like a total loser when I cannot do a certain stunt makes me wanna just quit. :( I dont know. I like the fact that im a part of the squad. I am a varsity of my school. I like dancing in events, showcasing my talents. I like it when people say, Yan si Christine, pep yan. Its like a cherry on top of an ice cream. The whole idea of being part of it makes me seem a little more different from others. I am a cheerleader but sometimes the idea of not having time to enjoy the company of my other friends is just too much sacrifice. Like last friday when I was not able to watch my bestfriend's gig at Eastwood. THAT ONLY HAPPENS ONCE IN A BLUE MOON AND I WAS NOT THERE COZ I HAD TRAINING. When I decline to people's invite's they instantly say, "training, LAGI NAMAN E." I am not mad at anyone. I am not blaming anyone as well. I entered this without thinking of its consequences beacause dancing is something I look for. Its what my body asks for when I get bored. Play a little music and you'll see me dancing like no one is watching.
They still dont know what else I can do. I wanna be able to write again. In a school paper just like how I did in my old school. Im planning to apply for Chi Rho, the school paper of MC. I also wanna run for council or CDEC. I wanna do so many things, like I used to. Why do I feel like Pep is EATING all of my time? I am frustrated. I dont know. But there's one thing on my mind. There's no turning back. Im gonna be the Christine that I used to be. I assure that. Just give me a little more time. :)
lalala. I miss my happy place. :(
