Hi. Christine. 18 and Happy. Makati Science High School Alumnus. Currently a Miriam College student.
MIRIAM COLLEGE PEP SQUAD. Dancing can reveal all the mystery that music conceals.
I have high expectations. I am A LIMITED EDITION. I have dreams, A LOT.

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Sunday, June 12, 2011 { Sunday, June 12, 2011 }

COMPLAIN. http://formspring.me/teentheluzer

Friday, June 10, 2011 { Friday, June 10, 2011 }

THIS FEELING SHALL PASS.-_-

Thursday, June 9, 2011 { Thursday, June 09, 2011 }

EXPECT THE WORST EXPECT THE WORST

{ Thursday, June 09, 2011 }

Wednesday, June 8, 2011 { Wednesday, June 08, 2011 }

{ Wednesday, June 08, 2011 }

Tuesday, June 7, 2011 { Tuesday, June 07, 2011 }

FIRST DAY TOMORROW OH MY GOD
First day and yes i was transferred to the other section for reasons I dont intend to know because I just have to stick with it my whole life. I am hoping for great, and intellectual teachers and JUST an awesome first day,

Dear You, I dont know how to approach you tomorrow. I am just not comfortable to be with you soon. I hope you know what I mean and realize it. Note to self: Do not tell HER why.

{ Tuesday, June 07, 2011 }







6:30 am at Miriam College, 8:30am at Meralco Development Center Antipolo, 2:00pm at Falcon Resort Bulacan, 4:30pm WITH HIM AT LAST :D

Monday, June 6, 2011 { Monday, June 06, 2011 }

xoxo

P.s. I know how cool it is, so i am informing you that the photo of myself in this entry was a photo taken during my 18th birthday, Happy Birthday again <3

{ Monday, June 06, 2011 }

{ Monday, June 06, 2011 }


This is for you Babe. <3 I love you for being YOU. Thanks for being a superhuman.

{ Monday, June 06, 2011 }

{ Monday, June 06, 2011 }

First of all, this is a reply post to my fififo: Carissa Punsalan.

{ Monday, June 06, 2011 }

Pat surprised me just now, he is injured. He went to school to accomplish things and he was calling me asking why I was texting all these worry texts( i was worried coz he used his dad's lexus) but then a little later he said:

Pat: Umuulan ba jan?
Teen: Oo eh. Bakit? Jan ba?
Pat: Oo din eh.
(beep beep)
Yes. He was outside my house. :")
He never refuses to make me smile through his sudden mini or huge surprises. As he said: Hindi naman ako tumigil na ligawan ka diba? :")

 Just last night, he rushed to my house to get first aid for his twisted ankle. He had to hold on to me and I had to take him inside my house. This happened around 12am and it is just to sweet to get midnight surprises.. seeing him for what, 30 minutes just makes my day. I love him so much. He is just too sweet. <3

He is like a bestfriend to me, a brother, a dad, and the best boyfriend someone could ever have. He loves me even if I am all sticky and my hair is a mess, he makes me clean his nails and his cute nose. HAHA. We're kids, inlove. Nothing would ever change that.
Hi Patootie,
HAVRIROO

Friday, June 3, 2011 { Friday, June 03, 2011 }

Im on the state of wanting to update this blog.
I just want to start ranting about random things that is happening in my life right now.

Because the last post that I had here was when I was still dreaming that Pat would like me,
and now that we're together, HE DESERVES to be written about. I love him so much.
SO SO MUCH.

First entry of 2011. Millions to go.

Friday, November 19, 2010 { Friday, November 19, 2010 }

2 am in the morning. HAPPINESS.
If its meant to be, it will happen. No matter how long it takes. Smile the pain away. ♥

I havent been blogging for centuries. Im preoccupied by too much body pain, decision-making disasters and breath-taking experiences within these past few days. whew. this is how i look now. kaybye whatever. Please give me time to be able to blog properly. AGAIN.

Saturday, November 6, 2010 { Saturday, November 06, 2010 }

{ Saturday, November 06, 2010 }






Yanna's 18th was totally awesome! I did not even expect that the RB was gonna be 'almost' complete. Marla sure had a great time in London so yeah. I feel so guilty that we weren't able to go to Marla's debut, we had some emergencies. (GUILTY FOREVER AND EVER) I love you marla, we'll make it up to you.

Gabi, Bea, Reggie, Jophie and I were one of the 18 shots and we had to drink the shots from a test tube! AWESOME. We even guessed on how yanna would do her entrance, what she would wear and how the party flow would be knowing her favorites and all, OH WELL we scored a 90%! From boots, to curly hair, to dancing entrances, to shiny leggings and even the food, WE SCORED IT ALL RIGHT! :) (well amost!)

PANNA COTTA && MARGARITAS.

I admire Yanna for her confidence. She's actually a rising star now and SHE COULD SING. Oh my gosh, ive known her since i was a kid and all I know was that she dances so well, but not sing that much.. though I expected that a bit since her mom was a singer. OMG YOURE LEGAL NOW YANNA! o_o =))

My favorite part was the dancing. :"> IT WAS AWESOME (period) DANCE DANCE LIKE ITS THE LAST NIGHT OF YOUR LIFE~~ Bea thought she saw a ghost. BUT IT WAS ONLY THE FOG MACHINE. HAHAHA. =)) there are really good dancers on the dance floor that night but the 5 of us would just have our own circle and SWAGGA LIKE THAT! on slow songs we did some ballet shizzits.

I miss these people. TRUE people that i spend my best moments with. :">
i miss ballet but my ballet career isnt complete without them. :)

That night was... ASDFGHJKL:;.

I love you RB. :)

Thursday, November 4, 2010 { Thursday, November 04, 2010 }

First Day DRAMA. Everyone gets through this right? RIGHT?

Tuesday, November 2, 2010 { Tuesday, November 02, 2010 }

Stop Fishing.

{ Tuesday, November 02, 2010 }

I did not know what sembreak really meant until this week came in. Last Friday, I was able to meet my lifetime bestfriends. I sleptover at Jophie's for like 3 nights and she slept at mine's for a day.  We also had Marla with us and we had loads of stories to tell. I was so glad that I had time to bond with my girls. We did not need to be in a fancy restaurant nor be dressed up extravagantly, all we needed was a quiet room and the three of us together. Ears for listening, eyes to see each other, mouth to tell stories and arms to give a comforting hug to someone. We all have problems, dilemmas and achievements as well. I guess that night was not even enough. :| I miss being with the whole RB, monopoly nights, "I have never" games, LOTS OF PICTURES and just the feeling of having real  friends even if most of us have quitted the genre that put us together, BALLET. It will, of course stay in our hearts forever. :"> :) (drama.) 


Im so proud of Marla for being a part of CADS. Both Jazz and Street. I mean wow, she is superwoman. Im so happy for her. Im proud of Jophie as well, she nailed her recent dance sport @ pe class competition. I came into a realization that dancing will always and forever will be in our hearts. I concentrated into cheerleading. Its amazing that we get to dance different genres now and still get to hang out like the old times. Im hoping for it to happen again and more often. 


I was able to have that "sink"  moment with Jophie. we had so much to tell while I did her nails. I discovered that nail art could be a lot easier with permanent colored markers! I did her nails with a fancy rainbow and a heart. I did zebra stripes in mine. oh well. :) We went to tita Chona that day. I had a tarot card reading session with her. To sum it up, she said mom is safe, I will have a great boyfriend soon and I shall stick to my course and follow mom at all times. She even told Jophie that I was a good kid, a great friend and well, her awesome sister unlike.. whoops. :O We ate at Kuretake. Awesome awesome food as always. 


I am so glad that twister fries is back. I LOVE IT. SO MUCH. (made me hungry as hell.) 


On our third day together, we woke up late and ended up fixing my stupid cellphone charger applying whatever I learned in my physics class in High School. We were like: "so this wire goes here.. or not. or lets try it this way.." Blah. We fixed it anyway with a little tape and a hairpin. Because were cool like that. 
We watched Date Night. Oh what an awesome movie, lesson learned: dont take any other person's reservation, bitch. haha, We played some rockband. i played as the drummer: FAIL. I tried the lead singer part: I kinda did well on that lovestory song. I also tried to be the guitarist.. it was okay. lala. We heared mass at rockwell. I LOVE THAT PLACE. I missed it. Damn it why do I have to live in Quezon City. :( WE had dinner at Burgoo and watched this insanely boring EAT PRAY LOVE movie. okay it was inspiring but it was too long? or not? :D I dont know,. Whatever. :))


25th of october was an awesome day. We went to this awesome place in cubao where vintage stuff are sold and got some cool stuff. I wanna go there again! :) We had an unplanned hangout since we did not really have a plan whatever. We had some FRUTTI FROYO (now open in trinoma, okay you frutti froyo owner. PAY ME FOR FREE ADVERTISEMENT) and twister fries (HOLY HOLY HOLY)  Top needed green pants to complete his Robin get up for this halloween party, and so we were able to find one, HOORAY! It was a rainy night but we had a little chat with mom and some stalking on facebook. Awesome night. :)


awesome 4 nights of my life. :")
i love you jophie and mar. :)
top and tom,  you are the awesomest kids ever. ;)
top, take care of joph. we both love her so much. :)


FINALLY had this in together again. :"> :)

Thursday, October 21, 2010 { Thursday, October 21, 2010 }

Training is still and forever will be the most intense thing in the world. I dont like it when im forced to dance the same old thing over and over again. I dont like dancing a genre that I do not appreciate. I am sorry. :| I thought the whole pep thing was pure cheerleading and all. Oh well, who's versatile now. >:) I miss ballet so badly. I miss bar warm ups and center adagios. I miss having a hard time putting on those tights and looking really thin and curvey on those fancy leotards. I miss feeling the pain on my toes, I miss teacher perry. I miss the really clean studio and the huge mirrors. I miss classical music. I miss dancing MY genre. 

{ Thursday, October 21, 2010 }

HI. first of all, YOU ARE SUCH A MEAN PERSON.
i THOUGHT YOU WERE MY FRIEND. I've been very supportive to you this sem, not only as a friend but as a sister who would be there for you no matter what. We've talked endlessly on the phone about random stuff and I was always there to listen to you. I have always understood your mind-boggling atttitude. I get hurt at times but I just let it pass. AND THATS BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FRIEND. I dont want to hate you but i guess ive had enough. 


YOU DONT HAVE TO TELL ME TO GROW UP BECAUSE I AM OLDER THAN YOU. You may be mature, you may have vices but dude, that does not make you cool. You need real friends, and yes, I CAN BE ONE OF THEM. But  you hurt my feelings. You made me feel like I am an immature kid wasting her time and life in a vast day care center. Sorry for being such a kid. YES, maybe I am stuck in my childhood but who cares, I enjoy my life anyway. At least people are true to me, they dont just let things pass.


" because the only reason she's picking on you is too boost her own self-esteem knowing that people around her seem to be fake because of the annoying personality she has. She likes to act tough but once you break her, she'll realize she was wrong." -someone.


YES, you were cool back in highschool. THIS IS COLLEGE, (that's what you told me.) you just have to accept that you are just an average kid right now. 


"youre oversensitive. this is college. not a friggin day care center. grow a thick skin."


I WILL MAKE SURE THAT YOU WILL REGRET WHAT YOU HAVE DONE. >:)
OKAY OKAY BOSS. THANKS FOR RUINING MY DAY.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010 { Wednesday, October 20, 2010 }


tumblr has that effect on me :|


You know that feeling? When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you're tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay. But no one's going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you're tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won't be. But you're still hoping. And you're still wishing. And you're still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You're fighting.


He broke up with you, right? After telling you he loved you and calling you pet names like baby and cutie? Yeah, I know he lavished you in compliments, only to put himself down so you would stroke his fake low ego. Did he tell you that you were beautiful? I bet he promised you a personalized song. Or maybe he’d always mention how he was lying in bed and wished you were there. He dragged “I love you” out of you, didn’t he? Yeah, don’t deny it. He would talk to you last thing at night and first thing in the morning. He constantly mentioned losing sleep over you, every night, but we both know he slept like a rock. He made you love pictures that were just sort of “bleh” before. Did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? Yeah, me too. All of your friends hate him now, don’t they? Remember how happy they were for you? They warned you. Just remember, it’s okay to cry. And referring to him as “asshole” is perfectly expected. Because, trust me, you’ll end up talking about him just as often, if not more, than before the break up. There will be the “one time”s and the “I remember”s, and once you think you’re over him, watch out. You better keep your eyes closed in the hallways, because I promise you, the next time you see him, he’ll be all over some other girl. A little part of you will want to warn her, but nobody will blame you for hating her and for blaming her for your pain. Yeah, you’ll compare all guys to him, because aside from the man-whorish, heart-breaker thing, he was perfect. He was everything you had ever wanted. Or maybe you made that up. Maybe, the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just happened to be just like him. Listen, you will find the perfect guy for you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon. Okay, so I didn’t believe it either, but I’m starting to.The most important thing though is don’t let him know he hurt you. Don’t let him know he could have you back in a heartbeat. Don’t give him that satisfaction. Make him think you’re completely happy. When he decides to wave at you like nothing ever happened, wave back, sure. But don’t smile. Make him think he meant as little to you, as you obviously meant to him.

Saturday, October 16, 2010 { Saturday, October 16, 2010 }

{ Saturday, October 16, 2010 }


I ALMOST KILLED MY COMPUTER TO GET THIS SCREEN CAPT OF MY GRADES. :|
so yeah. FIRST SEM, i rocked you but not too much to get me into DL. :) Im done ranting and complaining, IM CONTENTED, OH YES :)

HOW DID I SEE MY GRADES?
October 15, 2010 12am, Stupid Soars WONT OPEN. I was sooo anxious to know that I refreshed a zillion tmes just to wait for it to appear. WELL IT DIDNT. I had to wait til tomorrow. So yeah. I WAS FOUR MINUTES late for training and right after stretching, I rushed to laptop of my pepmate and got to see my grades. I did not know what to feel. Of course for once, I was happy. (walang F eh.) Then I scrolled down, I saw my CQPA. 4.0250. WHY OH WHY. I just lacked 0.275 to get in the dean's list. I wanted to prove something to my mom. Of course after 4 years of being in maksci, she did not pay a big amount for my tuition fee. And now she has to pay at least 50K per semester. For a single mom, it is not that easy. I wanna prove to mom that I can show her that im not dumb, and that I can balance time for my studies and time for PEP. :">  I get sad when sometimes she tells me to quit just because I go home late all the time because of training. But I was so glad when she was there to cheer for me during the cheerdance compet of the freshmen. SHE WAS CHEERING MY NAME OUT LOUD. :"> Oh I love you mommmy. :) :D I hope she would never make me stop dancing and training for pep, it is a major thing that makes me wanna stay in MC for good. :)

History depressed me. That was my favorite subject since forever. I would not blame my prof because she is ONE HELLA GREAT PERSON. Its just that I expected this because I dont get to study for her exams since I get home at 9 or 10pm because of training. Sometimes I just forget that I have a quiz, it is my first subject. I AM FRUSTRATED. I should have done well. OH WELL. 3.5 aint bad. NOT AT ALL. :)

Psych. I DONT GET IT. I did not really enjoy it. TERMS are TERMS. TOO MUCH. The kind of science that I want is somewhere around BIOLOGY, CHEMISTRY.. like that. but psych. NOOOOO. :|

NSTP. I DONT KNOW HOW THE HELL SHE COMPUTED MY GRADE. WE ONLY HAD 1 EXAM AND AN EXPOSURE TRIP. I WAS ONE HELLA ACTIVE PERSON DURING THAT DAY, SHE JUST DIDNT KNOW. DADALHIN KO SYA SA DAANG TUBO PARA MALAMAN NYA KUNG GAANO AKO KA KIND HEARTED SA MGA TAO DUN AT SA FOSTER FAMILY KO DUN. >:( DAMN IT :| PINAGPUYATAN KO YUNG POWERPOINT NAMIN DOON. OKAY GALIT AKO. CHILL. :| :| :(

to sum it all up.. I AM CONTENTED.
SECOND SEM, PLEASE BE KIND TO ME. :)

0.275, FCKYOU.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010 { Wednesday, October 13, 2010 }

im your number one fan, 
AUTUMN JANINA MARIE EBARLE CAZENAS. :">\
Hi Autumn. :) I wish I had your voice but you know, I dont regret having my ugly voice because it is the same voice that I used when I first talked to you. AND THAT MADE ALL THE DIFFERENCE ♥ Im so proud of you as a friend and IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOUR VOICE :") Thanks for dedicating the song BREAKEVEN to me, (its was surely my 1 month LSS) GOSH! :) I am so happy that I did not just survive my first sem with you, but we remained PH forever. :"> :) Even if we dont go DL, its fine. I surely enjoyed my first sem and you are a big part of it. :) Thank you so much. I am praying everyday that we still remain blockmates so we can still be PH. :) >:D< You are one of the most influential people in my life and I adore you for always standing for what you want and always remembering that GOD loves US. :"> :) You are my inspiration. I know I always get that PISSED-AT-EVERYONE syndrome and I shout at you a lot, IM SO SORRY, i hope you understand. Autumn, I do not regret promoting you and telling the people to vote for you rather than to vote for me for class rep, YOU SURELY DID A GOOD JOB. :"> i am so proud of you. RADIO MC was what we wanted but maybe GLEE CLUB IS BETTER FOR YOU. I wanna see you showcase your talent. I wanna support you the way you support me. :"> :) FOR REAL, so please CONSIDER THIS. :"> Im sure KC will be there to guide you. :) :) I love you. :) 


I AM HOPING FOR MORE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL SEMESTERS WITH YOU.
YOU MAKE ME HAPPY. :">


I love you and lastly, I AM YOUR BIGGEST FAN ♥

{ Wednesday, October 13, 2010 }







After 5 PEP TRAINING-LESS days, here we go again.
What a WELCOME BACK GIFT of 15 rounds of jogging around the field, 100 situps, 100 v-ups, 100 push-ups, 60-second handstands, handstand walks, 5 minute SPLIT on both sides, l-kicks, elbow kicks, brige stays, and THE KILLER: MINUTES OF STRADDLE OVERS. :| :( and many many more. DEFINE HELL :|


I felt sad for my  pepmates who just recently got their BELLYRINGS (wow i want one but i have a really strict mom and besides i wont be able to handle the pain so NEVERMIND) because we had banana swings and their navels were squished like lemons for a glass of lemonade. :| DAMN IT. :| Coach mad eus do it for so many times like a hundred or more. I always count one to one hundred during training. I REALIZED, JUST NOW. TEEHEE :)) 


There are so many UNFINISHED dances, its getting hard to memorize the steps. Anyway, no pressure at all. Its just that my enemy is the tiring MOMENTS, THE UNBEARABLE PAIN and the never ending SWEAT DROPS. :( and not even an HOUR break,  just 45 mins or sometimes LESS. :|


Sometimes I just ask myself.. WHY AM I STILL DOING THIS? When I can say.. I QUIT I QUIT. NO. QUITTING WILL NOT DO ANYTHING GOOD TO ME. Will I just throw away the numerous hours of PAIN for time to rest? My friends support me and im doing this not only for my squad, not only for my school, not only for mom and my friends but for myself. TO FILL IN MY NEEDS OF DANCING BECAUSE THIS KEEPS ME ALIVE. DANCING IS A PART OF MY SYSTEM, YOU CANNOT TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME. :"> THIS IS WHAT I DID IN EXCHANGE OF BALLET. and I will make it worth it.


I miss my lifters. I miss being able to fly, toss and everything. Everytime our flyers would show fear, I would say to myself, I would just straighten my legs if I were them. I miss flying and smiling. I hope ate sol and ate zooey trains again. 


CONCERT IS FAST APPROACHING. :)
Im excited to see TEACHER PETER ONCE AGAIN. YIPPEEEE :">

Monday, October 11, 2010 { Monday, October 11, 2010 }



YAY FOR A NEW LAYOUT. \:D/ 
I do not normally do these things and I know my BIFFF maan FURIO will be so PROUD OF ME.
\:D/ I MISS THAT KID. :| A LOT. we've both been busy and I HAVENT SEEN HER IN MONTHS. :(
PLEASE SHOW UP ON OUR CONCERT BIFF.
I love you. (KAY I KNOW YOU'LL SAY CHEEZBALLS)
YOU ARE NOT DOING BITCHY STUFF I SWEAR.
ITS NOT YOUR FAULT. FALL IN LOVE, DONT STOP IT
FROM HAPPENING. I wish you well.


I MISS YOUR SILENT LAUGH.
FREAK. ♥